If You Only Knew....

Heard this song today....


If You Only Knew lyrics

If you only knew
I'm hanging by a thread
On the web I spin for you
If you only knew.

I'd sacrifice my beating heart
before I lose you
I still hold onto the letters you returned
I swear I've lived and learned

It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me
I toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight bring me back to life
Breathe your breath in me.

The only thing that I still believe in is you,
if you only knew.

If you only knew
How many times I counted
All the words that went wrong

If you only knew
How I refuse to let you go,
Even when you're gone.

I don't regret any days I spent,
nights we shared,
Or letters that I sent.

It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me
I toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight bring me back to life
Breathe your breath in me.

The only thing that I still believe in is you,
if you only knew.

If you only knew
I still hold onto the letters you returned
You help me live and learn.

It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me
I toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight bring me back to life
Breathe your breath in me.

The only thing that I still believe in is you,
believe in is you.
I still believe in you
Oh, if you only knew

Pork chops for Christmas!

Getting back into this isn't easy for me. I've taken a little extended break from blogging. Actually I've taken a little extended break from a lot of things. Blogging, school, work, sanity....

Yeah, it's been a rough few months :)

Christmas is fast approaching and although the music on the radio is still causing chunks to rise up in my throat when I hear anything seasonal related, Olivia is doing her best to get me in the holiday spirit. She'll be 4 in March and this is the first year that she really gets the whole concept of Santa and is really excited about it. This leads me to a story that I really want to share.

About two weeks ago Livvy was talking on her play phone. I asked who she was talking to and she announced that she was talking to Santa! So I tell her to make sure she tells Santa what she really wants for Christmas. This is what I hear:

"Santa? I want toys, and juice, and books, and puzzles, and green beans, and peas, and pork shops (chops)......."

I about fell over laughing. A 3 year old asking Santa for meat is a sure sign of a recession and unemployed mom if you ask me.

So I decide to call the "real" Santa so she can tell him what she wants. I call my Dad. I dial the number, and he answers:

Dad: Hello?

Me: Hello, Santa! Olivia would really like to tell you what she wants for Christmas this year. Do you have a few minutes to talk to her?

Dad: Uh, okay.....

Me: Olivia, Santa is on the phone! Come tell him what you want!

Olivia: (grabbing the phone out of my hand) Santa! I want toys, and juice, and books, and puzzles...

Okay?

Dad: Okay, Olivia! (in Santa voice)

Olivia: Okay....can I talk to Nina now??

I tell ya, I know my kid is smart but she caught on to the fact that it was her PopPop on the other end of that phone and not Santa a little to easily if you ask me! But certainly not before she told him everything she wanted!

You can bet that 'Santa' will be placing a pack of pork chops under the tree on Christmas morning! Maybe a can of green beans and peas too!