Within Reach

Olivia and I went to the carnival again tonight. This is quickly becoming one of our favorite things to do. There is just something about seeing the look on her face when she is on the rides that just makes my heart overflow and for a minute it takes me back. I remember being that young and how everything was so exciting. Truth be told though, Olivia is much more daring than I ever was (or even still am!). She has no fear and it's quickly becoming something I admire about her. I have no doubt that one day she is going to take the world head on and do something really special.

Lately, I have been thinking of new things that I can do. As if school, work, and being a single mom aren't enough I have contemplated the idea of writing a book. If Tori Spelling can do it, I am sure I can!

I have also tossed around the idea of doing some charity work. I would love to volunteer my time at the hospital; a long time ago someone told me that they are always looking for people to come in and rock babies. Babies who were abandoned or born to drug addicted moms. Babies who are essentially all alone in the world and just need the caring touch of a warm body. I really think that is something I would like to do. Of course knowing me I will want to bring home all those sweet babies at the end of the day.

I guess I just feel like over the last couple years I was so absorbed in keeping my marriage together that I really neglected in doing things for myself and for others.

I look at Olivia and see her lack of fear and I guess it makes me not so scared to try different things and see that even at 26, I can still do something really special too. That's what I am reaching for, and I think I am well on my way.